A passionate fantasy writer and gamer who crafts immersive tales inspired by ancient myths and modern adventures.
One day at work a couple of years back, an alert popped up on my mobile device: my salary had come through. It was a fair amount for a student, so I proceeded with my what I always did payday ritual: I launched every single shopping app on my phone. From Amazon to Zara, the list was endless. Within the space of an hour, I had parted with ÂŁ90 on apparel, decorative items and a completely useless heavy blanket that I never used.
A few days later, I returned to the internet and purchased a blow dryer. I already had one, but reasoned an extra one couldn't hurt. Then I included LED strip lights and two shoes that didn't even fit me. This wasn’t new behaviour. In reality, I’d been infamous for it ever since I could afford to buy my own things.
Whenever I felt anxious, tired or bored, I would doomscroll until it always culminated in an unplanned shopping spree. My excuse was always: “It's only £5.” But £5 turned into £10, then £20, and so on.
I was never entirely sure about the reason. Maybe it was due to I grew up in a low-income family, where we’d go months without purchasing new outfits or anything to decorate the home. So any time I had extra money, there was always a hidden desire for new and exciting things. Or maybe, and definitely more likely, I was just financially irresponsible and gave in readily to the lure of consumerism.
In the end, I decided to experiment with something new. Prior to acquiring any item, I’d put it in my digital cart, wait 24 hours, then decide on whether to check out. The best part of this technique was that it provided me space to think – something I’d never taken. For the first time since I turned 18, I started questioning: “Do I truly require this? Can I afford it?” More often than not, the answer was no.
If I accessed my shopping apps and found items sitting in my basket, I’d clear them out and start fresh. Using this system, I ceased buying goods that I intuitively knew I would never use. I once wanted to purchasing a trio of games, but after waiting before visiting the shop, I understood I never actually engage with tabletop games.
I also wanted to buying a single-use camera for my first holiday to Croatia. After pausing I remembered I possessed a phone, similar to most people, that has a perfectly adequate lens, and therefore had no requirement to buy a separate device.
It additionally means I am more discerning about the things I do purchase, and I can at last look at my bank statements without experiencing shame or discomfort.
Of course, there have been occasions I’ve slipped back into old patterns – it's human nature. The difference now is that I can identify the warning signs early, especially when I’m rushing into a purchase. I’ve realised boredom is a powerful catalyst. It’s perhaps the primary motivator of my impulsive spending.
Consumer culture preys on this boredom and our need for instant satisfaction. That’s why, in hindsight, forcing myself to pause before purchasing has felt strangely freeing. Gaining command over my urges and reaffirming that I don't have to expend my hard-earned money on unnecessary goods feels as revolutionary as it is simple.
A passionate fantasy writer and gamer who crafts immersive tales inspired by ancient myths and modern adventures.